Easter holds some special memories for you – can you share?
My mother was a singer and my father was an organist. I started singing in church at 15 years of age. We’d do Easter choral works, a lot of Bach cantatas. As a soloist, I started with Bach’s B minor mass and the St. Matthew Passion. We also did certain choral pieces from Handel’s Messiah…
I don’t know how she did this but my mother always had Wrigley’s chewing gum and always insisted a having a stick… She would always get the right note out and I would always marvel at how she found that note and cord. I learned all my sight seeing and ear training from her.
My father was always off playing at another church with his choir. It’s such a busy time with Good Friday and Easter Sunday and you’re rehearsing and there are not just one or two services, there’s what you call and Evensong as well… So sometimes we’d be there well into the evenings.
Did you only sing in one church?
I wrote all the churches down that I did solos in and there were 8 in total. The last church I sang in was at St. Thomas High Anglican near UofT on Huron and they always played beautiful music there. I left when I got my first opera because I started going on the road a lot, I was 27.
It’s a fun time at Easter because you’re a big family with your choir. You lead the sections, but you’re with each other. You know, you bring your lunch and your things and you’re just with each other for a very long time and the music is very moving. I always had a good time because thankfully each church I sand at had a fantastic organ and organist! That for me was a religious experience, listening to those phenomenal organists improvise on a beautiful tune that they themselves composed. It made me very happy, but often times the opera’s divided and you’re facing each other and sometimes it would be difficult not to laugh or crack a joke or send a silly piece of paper across the way. I had a lot of silly times and serious times but also nerve-racking times…
Why Nervous times?
Because when you have to sing a solo and you’re not that experienced (or any time I have to sing a solo) I get nervous! But I’m more experienced now so I know now what to do with my nerves. I’ve still got adrenalin going all over the place, but the more times you sing it, and sing it, and sing it, you gain more confidence. It was through this process that I began to gain confidence in my singing and know that I have a voice.
Happy Easter from Jean Stilwell and your friends at The New Classical FM!